I have a bit of a personal ritual around the New Year. Not only do I celebrate my 8th anniversary of marriage to my husband on the 30th, but the new year also symbolizes a time to stop and reflect on the year I’ve had and the goals I want for the future.
I can say, without a doubt, that 2016 has been a steaming dump of a year. There were a few highlights, undoubtedly, like the weddings of a couple of my best friends, an awesomely extravagant vacation, and adulting successfully by doing something called buying a car. And while all these events are wonderful, it cannot overshadow the festering, stinking dumpster fire this year has been since the beginning.
Four more days, friends. Four more. But what, oh what, does 2017 hold?
That, readers, is questionable. If, like me, you have harbored extreme resentment and a little bitterness since the election, you, like me, are probably approaching the new year with apprehension. Uncertainty. Even disappointment.
Trust me, reader, I sympathize.
And that brings me to my resolution for 2017. I only have one this year, but I think it’s going to be important if I ever want to leave this rut and keep moving forward.
My 2017 resolution is simply this: To stop being afraid and live the life I want for myself.
I know you’re probably like, c’mon Chels, that’s so vague and idealistic. You can’t accomplish that. You can’t measure that.
None of that really matters to me.
What matters to me is the world seems to be falling apart at the seams, and if I let it, it will drag me down with it.
I refuse to let that happen.
I refuse to be afraid of circumstances out of my control.
I refuse to stay stuck out of comfort and fear of change.
I refuse to sit for another miserable year and end up the same unsatisfied human I seem to always be reflecting on the past year, and moving into a new one.
Attempting to find a job in Japan has given me renewed desire and perspective. A goal to work toward. Something I have wanted for a very long time but have been too fearful to pursue. Will it happen soon? Maybe. Will it happen under the circumstances in which I want it? Doubtful. Will it solve all of my woes? Certainly not.
But will it happen? Most definitely.
It can’t be any worse than sitting and waiting for change to come to me.
I’m so tired of waiting.
And so, I face 2017 with little fear and increased optimism.
2017 just better be ready for me.